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My message center is so crowded lawl. And that makes things a lot easier to filter it out when I just need to get it clear xD

But yeah.

just an update to say I'm still alive of course xD haven't been on much as you all know. Same ol same ol. School. NaNo. Supernatural. ...more Supernatural. Oh gosh I'm almost done with season 3...then I'll only have season 4 to watch and then I won't have any more DVDs til the next one comes out ASKJLDLJKF. It is so good it makes me want to cry. In a sad/good way. I like sad things xD sad songs, sad stories, sad TV shows. And it's funny too so that's a plus. /SUPERNATURAL PLUG

yeppp well. Let's see... today's Tuesday... that means I've got three more days until I'm headin down south to the valley for a whole EIGHT DAYS. Fkljdkjla. I planned to watch Supernatural on the way down and back (it's a good six hour drive), but at this rate, I'm gonna be finished with it all before then XDD or maybe I'll have just a little bit left. GOSH. I was thinkin about buyin PMD Sky to amuse myself... but eh, don't want to waste the money. Not that I don't like PMD xD I just already have Time, so... hmm. yeah.

But yeah it's fun down in the valley... I'll be sure to try to take photos... or something. Can't promise I'll be on dA much though. There's gonna be a lot of family down there so it'll be busy. Sorry.

In other random update crap, I've been checkin out art schools a lot recently... emailed a couple of them... SVA and Columbia... both are lookin okay... except I've been hearing a lot of bad things about Columbia from that studentsreview site :\ but the school looks so good... although I know they'll TRY to sell you on it however it takes lol XD but yeah, I like it... and I'd be super stoked about it if it wasn't for those terrible reviews... but I guess I should just wait until I visit there xD hey, gives me an excuse to visit the windy city.

But aagheghhegh I still don't know if art school is really what I want to do... I mean, I think I'm okay at art, but... am I good enough? Will I be able to handle the tough competition? What about the whole starving artist thing? XD lol I'm sure I won't starve, but it'd be nice to feel secure, you know? but like...what if I go to art school and it's just a waste of time and money and I end up wanting to do something else... aghh. It's just impossible to make a decision that's gonna impact the rest of your life... but I know I won't be happy unless I'm CREATING something. I live to create. But yeah... just a hard thing to think about... Do I want to ILLUSTRATE? Or create some other way? I've always loved writing and story-weaving... but doing NaNo this year made me realize how completely crappy I am at writing prose... I mean, I think I can do a goodish storyline... but the prose is crap lol. Although it's just NaNo so I shouldn't take it to heart too much... but I don't think I'd want to like major in writing though... but there's other kinds of storyweaving like in animation and screenplays and ahhfgfd

also there's this... thing that... I might be able to get a full scholarship with this program... but only if I go to school in Texas :\ I mean, sure I like Texas, but I haven't found a good school here that I'd want to go to... unless I gave up on the art thing. 'Cause you know, it seems like such a waste to go out of state when I could stay here and take advantage of the help? But I NEED to be independent and lajkfjkl I dunno xD gahgahghahgahah life is hard >> I guess that's why I've been so immersed in Supernatural lately xD I tend to get obsessed with something when I just need to get my mind off of things... plus, Jensen Ackles is hot, so that helps. eee... hehehe.... /FANGIRL PERVY THOUGHTS.

N'aw.

But yeah xD I guess this small update journal turned into a long ramble. Lol xD sorry... just like documenting my feelings here on dA... I wonder what it'd be like to go back and read years from now, you know? I mean, I've already done it with old journals from like last year and the year before...and it's a trip xD it's like going back in time...

but yeah... I just really hope...that I can do something important with my life. I'm not going to give up on that. Somehow, I'll find a way. I guess this sounds a little bit random... oh well xD just the rambles of a drunk girl... minus the drunk part. Lol.

Zules out



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